Close scrutiny will show that most “crisis situations” are opportunities to either advance, or stay where you are.
Maxwell Maltz
I am making some pretty large changes in my life. My youngest daughter has her last, first day of high school this week. That’s right; she is a senior and about to embark on a year that will take her from the halls of her small rural high school to a dorm and academic halls on some unknown university campus. I know what she has coming her way.
What I do not know is what’s coming MY way? Where does my path lead?
It used to be so easy!!! You took some crazy test in high school and they pegged you — chef, artist, mathematician or musician. That’s the road you went down and you stayed on it for 40-50 years. You knew what to contribute–if you were a chef you contributed food. Easy-breezy sits and waits until retirement. Your career was planned for you.
Those days are long gone. Thank god!
I have been working for over 20 years. Like most folks of a certain age I may be going through a crisis of sort. You might call it a midlife crisis but I call it something else-A crisis of spirit.
I know that I have reached a peak in my business career. I am not one to just punch a card and get a check. That does not interest me. I need to contribute. I need to add value and I need to be active. I am a worker bee.. A doer. I am good at my job but after 20 years I am not learning as much as I want. I am not challenged in a way that excites me and I am not getting as much satisfaction as I used to. My job is great. It’s actually fricking amazing- yet I have changed and evolved over the years and what once fulfilled my needs, no longer does.
Yet I know I have another 25 years of work ahead of me. I have skills and I know how to work. I need a community-my house is almost empty my children almost gone. I need consistent income- college is a little spendy.
But above all- I need a challenge. I currently work with smart, creative, interesting people, and I need that in the future. I need to work on projects that I believe in, that have impact. I need to break barriers. I need to have my time be my own. I want to be mobile. I want options.
Woo-Hoo!!!! I get excited just thinking about it. Just writing it shot electricity through my body, and that place deep within me that tells me when I have made a really good choice just poked me as to say good job kid.
After 20 plus years of managing others, I want to spend the next 25 years managing myself. Investing in myself. The next 25 years will be devoted to designing a life that works for Desiree. The Desiree I am today and the Desiree I will be in the future.
I choose me.
I do not want to slow down, I have no plans to slow down. I want to speed up and hit the curves using all my super powers for good. Educating, motivating, mentoring, and liberating.
Where will my path lead? I have no idea. But in the words of Audre Lorde “I am deliberate and afraid of nothing”.
And I think that kicks ass.
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The title, the image, the message, all drew me in. I love this blog. I think that throughout life we face death and a reborn many times. The biggest re-birth is realizing that we are the creators of our destiny. We don’t have the “big eye” watching our every single action and scorning us around every corner. We are powerful creators and the world is in the process of facing a re-birth in general. A birth of awareness. Love you. Thank you.
Rene,
I am so glad you enjoyed the post and that it resonated with you. We are all powerful creators and have the ability to design, create and birth the life that we want for our selves… its not always easy but it is always worth it.
Peace and Blessings to you!
Simply put, bravo Desiree!
Sending congratulations and continuing blessings as you travel along your new road. Enjoy the journey!
jeanie,
Thanks so very much for your well wishes! Let the adventure begin.
Amazing blog! I always love your writing and I can’t wait to share it with more people.
Thnaks so much for sharing. I hope it is useful to you on your path.
In a word, Awesome!! It may not be the easy-breezy path… but it is certainly more fun and rewarding!
If you hear a distant cheer today, that’s me over here on the left coast!
Lori!
Women like you inspire me to be better. I always know that you are rooting me on to live my best life.
SO PROUD….WE shall work this world together. Investing in ourselves. Hugs!
Ericka
I am super proud of you for pathing the way!
Love this! Your determination and energy delights me and even makes me feel more empowered to face my own situation. All the best!
SO happy for you Desiree! Awesome and nurturing things to come your way, for sure. Looking forward to watching you sprout your wings even higher!
Thanks Andre! Its great to have such loving, supportive people rooting for me.
I woke up this morning with your words on my mind. I read it 2 more times already today. It is so amazing how one persons thoughts could mirror your own and inspire you to continue your own journey. Thank you!
Avien,
You have no idea how much your words mean to me. These are not just my words.. they are OUR words. Please continue on your magnificent journey. Know that I will support you every step of theway.
“I am deliberate and afraid of nothing”. I wrote that out and put it on my computer. Thank you.
My friend Dixie wrote this week, “we are the ones we’ve been waiting for” My mind went to her words as soon as I finished reading your piece. Sounds like you’re stepping into some serious personal power. You go girl.
Martha,
So glad you liked the post and one of my all time favorite quotes. Brave, bold changes, always seem to lead to exceeded expectations no matter the path.
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